October 17, 2008
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Here's that bump in the road LOL (How droll)
Sometimes you just run out of ideas and feel stopped up. Getting past that feeling, condition, or emotion is always harder than it seems. It's not something you can consciously control; you just have to wait it out like a bad cold. Eventually it will pass, because it's not so insurmountable. You can only find comfort in the nothing, because that's the space your mind is occupying. Nothing to say without being a bore to yourself or others, or just clamming up and contemplating your navel. (Not sure why someone would contemplate your navel, but the phrase seemed to fit.) I can't help but to chuckle when I think of it. Sounds ridiculous and quite mundane right? You can be quite assured that it's exactly that. Ridiculously bland without a cent of complexity. Then one day, the dam breaks and you creative juices flow faster than the Colorado River in springtime. You are suddenly able to pour out five pages of material without blinking an eye. You become livelier and more effervescent. Life seems to be swimming along as it should. You get so unbelievably used to this wonderful, yet temporary sanctuary in your life that you feel so surprised when that feeling, condition or emotion just ebbs away. It's very cyclical in it's way; almost seasonal in a sense. Worse in the winter of it's time, and less extreme in it's summer-like incarnation. Funny how life is like that. Along with the purest moments, there is an equal part of the ridiculous. Even when I write this, I feel the flat line of my prose. It's slowly dribbles from my brain, onto the keyboard, and thence into this post. Even though I know that this isn't necessary, and probably will garner no real importance, I still feel the fondness for this medium. This thing called writing is part of me. Like the ocean tide, it changes from strong to placid every minute of every day. Writer's block is the unfortunate side-effect of this exercise and it too shall pass.
